Strange moments
As most know, the last 18 months have been a roller coaster of emotions. A myriad of sadness, happiness, hopelessness, depression, and even hope. At times, hard to overcome, and other times a joy. I swelled in pride at my boys' accomplishments, sighed at their struggles, and cried at their pain. For some strange reason, I've been feeling off kilter lately. I can't explain it. Just doesn't feel right. Something bubbling at the surface. A mixture of anxiety, fear, sadness, insecurity, and anger. Anger at myself, fear for the future, sadness about past lives, anxiety for possibilities, and insecurity about everything. Today, I reached a point. I was in a meeting with my boss this morning. I got a phone call from my youngest. It seems my oldest had a tempter flare-up and now there is a crack in my television screen. Now, I wasn't angry at the crack. I felt overwhelmed. That I lost control. Every single thing that was building up just boiled over, and I